I have neurotic tendencies. Mixed together with an unhealthy dose of OCD.
I don't know when it started, but ask any good friend of mine, and they can tell you that there are times when I lose my mind for no good reason at all. The freakouts are usually only set off by certain things, though my mind has been prone to spontaneous combustion (metaphorically of course), causing fierce gesticulations, crazy glints in my eyes, and nonsense sentences/language. Lack of coherent speaking skills has also been known to happen.
I become extremely agitated and stressed out when things are not as they should be. For example, untidiness. Untidiness in any sense of the word is apalling to me. I literally can't comprehend it. When something of my own- say my room or even my school notebooks -becomes the tiniest bit of what I deem "unclean" or "messy", I have to fix it. I don't mean that casually. I mean I HAVE to. My brain runs around in frenzied circles until I do. If I know that one of my notebooks is out of order, or if I know that my bed isn't made at home, I cannot stop thinking about it until it is fixed. It literally stresses me out. If I'm doing an assignment in class and I see that some of my letters aren't quite right, or that my alignment is slightly off, I will erase everything and rewrite it.
You can see how this might cause problems.
My insane need for symmetry and neatness has been slowly spilling over into every asset of my life. When I have a friend come over and we bring drinks into my bedroom, there MUST BE COASTERS. If the poor person happens to set their glass down on my desk with no coaster to defend the wood of the desk, all hell is guaranteed to break loose. Most of the time I don't even use real words, I just shout like a tortured soul being exorcised and pull my hair out, pointing a shaking finger at the glass until they get the picture. I am so amazed that I have as many friends as I do. You would think that my insanity would have driven them off ages ago.
The tendencies have become more like behavioral quirks (putting it lightly, really) in recent months, which is a tad frightening. I think at one point I may have been concerned, but I have now officially been completely consumed. I no longer hesitate in admitting I have a problem. I merely accept it.
I have stopped at the first step of the 12 Step Program to recovery, and I think I'm setting up camp there.
I think that the first step there is all you need! Embrace your crazy freak out side, Jimmy boy. It's clearly feeling repressed, and wants to manifest itself in insane stress and the occasional snap in sanity.
ReplyDeleteIt might also be nice to go with another step, and draw all of the people that you can possibly manage into you freak outs. I imagine this would eventually escalate into an all out war. I can see it now...
"COASTERS!!"
"I MUST ORGANIIIIIIZE"
"I WANT TO ORGANIZE THINGS MYYY WAYYYY"
And that's when the world breaks.
I say that you need more adventures in your life. You should hang out with me and Shirley more. ;)
Oh, I'm definitely embracing it my friend. No doubts there. :)
DeleteBahaha, that would mean war. Who knows though? I think my craziness is increasing anyway. :P
I DO need to hang out with you two more! Much adventuring to be had!
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DeleteI see my brother has been reading Freud again. Just as long as he doesn't try it on me AGAIN.
ReplyDeleteI would be happy to help you loosen up a bit Moriarty? Maybe a cup of tea? A game of Chess? I've been terribly bored. Then again I can't argue with your neatness. You have to be organized to be as evil as you are and manage to evade even the dullest detective.
Who says I would want to hang out with YOU Mycroft.
Aw, that's sweet of you Sherly~ :) I'd love to grab some tea sometime (When are we having that tea party??).
DeleteWhy thank you! Someone appreciates my neatness. It is extremely important to be neat and thorough in our line of work though, isn't it?
I think a playdate is in order here.
What do you mean our line of work? You're a consulting criminal and I'm a consulting detective. They're nothing alike. I would set a date but I know since you are 'soooo changeable' you probably won't hold to it anyway.
DeleteYou forgot the comma indicating that you're speaking to me. Really, Shirley, if you are going to address me please use proper grammar. And the Usted form, in the event that we are speaking in Spanish, as I am your superior(In every way, might I add).
DeleteYou weren't even in this conversation. Why would you ever get the impression I was talking to you? You're not my superior anyway, just because mummy and daddy like you best and you work for the British government doesn't mean you get to rule my life.
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